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Oh, Oh....I'm so lazy to go to univ today. I'm afraid to meet my friends :(. Dunno why. 
I don't feel like I'm belong to there, I mean FIB. My first time in there, I thought I had a freedom, yet I was trapped. 
I love my close friends there. But, I HATE my major. 
I hate myself too, to become a coward like this: still couldn't tell my parents.
Life is on the way~ 

Ah, 

I just want to go out and take a walk. 
I need to breath, to have my mind straight again. I need a break, before I'm break. 

"now I lay me down to sleep, 
I pray thee Lord my soul to keep.
If I should die before I wake,
I pray thee Lord my soul to take.
If I should live in other days,
I pray thee Lord to guide my ways."

---AMEN  


Love,

LNJ

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Recent song that I listening, which...sounds like me. When I listening to this song, it gave me a courage to not stop breathing and dreaming.


Hold On 


You fought your way up to the wall
But you haven’t gone past at all
While gazing with tear filled eyes
You just can’t help but ask why
If trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake?
The world has taken its side
You just wanna run away and hide
It’s tough
There’s no one to turn to
I hear screaming inside you
Feels like hell’s all you’ve been through
Hell’s all you’ve been through
Hold on
Don’t stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too
Hold on
Don’t lose your faith
I know you can’t break
I’m hoping and praying for you
All your peace seems far away
But you know there comes a day
When everything’s so bright
All the darkness you feel subsides
And in the rising of the sun
You can finally say it’s done
The world will take your side
And your heart will start to shine
I will
Be holding on to you
There is nothing you can’t do
I will try to be strong
Will try to be strong so
Hold on
Don’t stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too
Hold on
Don’t lose your faith
I know you can’t break
I’m hoping and praying for you
I’ll never let go of you
I’ll never let go of you
I’ll never let go of you, of you
Hold on
Don’t stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too
Hold on
Don’t lose your faith
I know you can’t break
I’m hoping and waiting for you

It would be better if all my bestfriends and my close friends are understand my condition, always support me, give me courage when I fell/feel down, and I....I will always be there for you guys :)
Love you all,
LNJ

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Tomorrow, maybe, the DAY

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Background song playing: David Choi-That Girl

Finally, I took my bestfriend and my doctor advice. Tomorrow, Friday noon, I'll go to PLP. Consultation my problems. Maybe, I'll find out the answers of what I've been asking to myself everyday. Maybe, this is the best solution. Or..is it? idk. 
After that, I'll talk to my parents. 

O yeah, I forgot one thing to tell you, friends: I take a break from BCM 4. 
Some friends of mine in univ still told me that I took the wrong way, but I don't care what people are talkin' about. 

stop living for other people and their opinions and learn to value yourself! And what you stand for, be bold, be you!

though, I still felt a little bit guilty...but, hey! It's my choice. Could you just support me? Well, if you're really my friends. 

Whatever.

Anyway, I want to thank TIKA and FINA for always by my side in my difficult times (and happy times). Without you guys, I don't know how I get through of it. Really, crazily thank you from the bottom of my heart <3
regards,

LNJ
closing song: By My Side-David Choi

 

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I want to QUIT!!

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This semester is the worst semester ever!! 
I can't stand it again. I really wanna quit, but there's people who 'still grab my feet' so I can't move on.
I have enough with it.
Really...
if I could,
I would just throw my major away
away
far from my face. 


I hate you, Dad. For making me feel worst.
I hate you, Mom. For never really support me from the first time. 







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사랑이 참 밉다

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 My favorite song ever! Yayy~  



손끝이 떨려요 가슴이 막히고 갑갑하죠 한숨만 느네요
사랑만 있으면 다 될거라 믿었죠 왜 우리가 이렇게 된거죠
나는 사랑은 사랑만 하면 될 줄 알았죠
차라리 한바탕 울고 끝내는게 더 날까요
잦은 다툼과 시끄런 눈물 모든게
내 하루를 망치고 내 숨을 조여와 자꾸 가슴이 저려와
그댈 사랑한만큼 사랑이 참 밉다
똑같은 이유로 서로 뒤틀리고 또 다투고 눈물만 흘리고
사랑만 있으면 다 될거라 믿었죠 왜 사랑은 변하는 걸까요
나는 사랑은 사랑만 하면 될 줄 알았죠
차라리 한바탕 울고 끝내는게 더 날까요
잦은 다툼과 시끄런 눈물 모든게
내 하루를 망치고 내 숨을 조여와 자꾸 가슴이 저려와
그댈 사랑한만큼 사랑이 참 밉다



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